Odyssey of a Lost Blogger

In 2013, I began blogging. Everything I did at that point was copying and paste various articles from the internet. I continued to steal material with no originality in the hopes of being compensated by Google. I finished college in 2019 but was unable to enroll in law school in 2020. A global pandemic occurred, followed by a lockdown. My dog died in 2021. Life has been a whirlwind, like a jumbled script in which I play the lead role.

I chose to wallow in my misery and depression until I finally learned not to take things personally. It took me several years of wasting my time on low-value activities to come to a realization. A realization, as you can see, is a very personal experience. You may have to go through hell to find it, at times you might be lucky. What is the significance of discussing realization in this blog? Just Chill.

For years, I've been planning a project that will never see the light of day. I couldn't stop thinking about the perfect word to start my blog with. I'll get distracted, waste mental energy on frivolous online activities, then wake up the next morning and do it all over again. That was the path I took.

What was my Epiphany? 

With the power of my thoughts, I was my own worst enemy. I was never paying attention. I wasn't making the best use of time, I couldn't start small with what I had, and I expected everything to be perfect. Understand that your thoughts are powerful, if you don't make conscious decisions to control them, they will consume you. It is our thought energy that manifests what we think, whether good or bad and sadly, it is impossible to have good thoughts when you believe life is unfair. Your negative thoughts will only lead to crazier and stranger situations the more we dwell on them. Don't forget that we have over 80,000 thoughts per day, which is a lot of negative thoughts.

I began working on breaking bad habits, such as masturbation, and stopped watching pornography. I also worked hard on my mental energy to strengthen my willpower. I began to make the most of the  little I had and kept wondering how I had skipped this part of life; oh well, I had to learn in my own way and at my own pace.

Admittedly, I've been a jerk my entire life; I'm not very flexible with my thought process, and I'm always concerned with pressing issues and how to solve them right away, to the point where I lose track of time and become easily overwhelmed by erratic events. Oh, I had so much going for me, and it was so easy to hide behind a mask and pretend everything was fine. and my mind did a good job of keeping me in a destructive loop.

What is the significance of this? Actually, nothing. Things happen because it is a possibility, and I have chosen to pick up my pen to write again; as I compose this blog and other blogs, I'm excited that I can finally sit down to write this without being drained or bored, or my thought planning games with me, such as who cares to read what I have to say?

See, welcome to my world, I had a hard time expressing myself and was clueless about finding my expression, I was impatient and a novice at this thing called life, I took it too seriously, wanted everything without putting in the mental work of good thought, I was extremely busy but had nothing to show for it. I needed instant gratification, so I continued to learn but never started anything.

Don't push yourself too hard, my friend; forgive yourself, take a breather, and learn how to start small, remembering that small droplets add up to a massive ocean. I'm very excited to be writing this blog to kickstart something new in my life.

I'm really excited about the progress I've made so far; you should start something new today, please don't wait until you're ready because it might take forever.

If you've made it this far, I appreciate your time and would love to hear from you. You are welcome to leave a comment about your reaction to this blog, and I will gladly read them and respond as soon as possible.

I'll see you next time!